Friday, 24 October 2014

October 2014: My Favourite Place

Hello my loves!
Ohhh yes, it's been a while. Standard me: leaving things very late. I wanted to start a bit more of a persistent and consistent approach to blogging for a change. I noticed how much more organised I was when I was blogging more frequently - so I'm going to binge post to get me back into it.

So what I'm going to do - nothing too adventurous - is just give you the low-down on my favourite place this month. And some of you may find this completely sad and pathetic: but it's my new room! But most specifically, my desk.

When I moved into my room I didn't have a desk so I bought this cute little white one from Argos for £50 - which does the job just fine. I love white furniture, it's just looks so clean and pretty to me. I was thinking of doing a desk tour, is that something anyone would be interested in? Let me know!

I sit at my desk to do my work, watch Netflix and ITV player, and of course write this little blog. I can sit at my desk with a completely clear mind and say 'Right Chlo... lets do your work.' or 'Right Chlo, enough work, let's watch Coronation Street.' ...usually more of the the latter.

If anyone was interested at all, here's the links to the things you can see in the photo They're all very inexpensive!

Hello Kitty Cup (& Coaster!)
Hole Punch
'This Week' Planner by Emma Bridgewater

Hope you're all fine and dandy - and I'll be back soon enough!

Tuesday, 2 September 2014

Chats with Chlo | Anxiety

This is something I'm wanting to address on a personal level. I've been wanting to post this for a while, but struggled to find the words. So I wanted to tell you, probably one of the biggest parts of me... a part that some people closest to me don't even really know much. I suffer with anxiety and body dysmorphic disorder.

When did it start?
Since I was about 12 years old, I've always felt paranoid. Self-conscious. Worried. I put it down to the fact that my body was changing as I was growing up, and I thought that it was completely normal. Which really it was. But this stemmed into a huge web of feelings. I started to worry about really really REALLY pointless things. I'd become panicky in my head over actual and hypothetical situations to the point of being short of breath, sweating and feeling dizzy. It's only in my later years that I recognised this as anxiety. I know that a ton of people suffer with anxiety on very serious level, and I'd like to think that mine is manageable... sometimes.

What triggers my anxiety?Anything can trigger it. I know it's completely irrational, and that is what frustrates me the most. I'll give you a little example. Let's say I get on a bus, and it's a long journey. Any normal person would read a magazine, or listen to music wouldn't they? Not me. Some people might find this hilarious - but I really do have a problem with such a simple task as this. I don't like to read in public, because I have a fear that I have a really ugly resting/concentration face. I don't like to listen to music in public in case it's too loud and upsets others (which could cause conflict), or that I'm subconsciously heavy breathing (which would be embarrassing to me). A lot of it is rooted to the fact that I am mostly unhappy with my appearance.

How does anxiety and BDD affect my day-to-day life?
I have a love-hate relationship with myself; sometimes I like to be alone at University, and sometimes I really rely on being with people to feel comfortable. I wouldn't say I have a lot of friends at Uni. Back to the irrational thinking, simple things like sitting in lectures can trigger my anxiety. For example, I could be sat alone in a lecture and the people I know could be sat on the other side of the room and some days I could think 'Why don't they want to sit with me? Do they not like me? Am I boring/annoying? Maybe I look bad today, I knew I shouldn't have worn this today...' which then you can imagine stems into a list of worrying. It really isn't normal, and I know that now.

I am a million times better than I used to be. If anyone I know at work/uni/anywhere actually reads this then I really don't want you to be cautious or wary with me. And I'm sorry if I say something awkward or weird, but sometimes I really just can't control it. If you feel anything like I do, there's a huge network for people that suffer with social anxiety, personal anxiety etc. I've read up about it on Anxiety UK and particularly I found this self-help workbook on Moodjuice useful to look at as well.

This took a lot for me to write, and this is kind of like a public confession... and I guess that's it, really. So if you've read all of this, then thank you. And I promise my next blog post won't be so self-involved. Until next time, guys!

Monday, 18 August 2014

Where On EARTH Have You Been, Chlo?

I really am rubbish at this blogging business! I know I say this every blog post, but I seriously am going to be a bit more pro-active. I've been super busy lately, as I've got a summer job and it takes up literally all my time! So for this, I'm just gonna post a few pictures and give you a little caption. So, Chlo, what on EARTH have you been up to?!

Getting My New House Stuff Ready!
I'm moving into my new student house on either the 12th or 15th of September. Let me tell you; I am SO excited. I'll obviously be taking photos and letting you know how I've kitted out my room. This was taken before I moved in, so none of this is me. I bought some cute cushions the other day for that little white sofa, and I was almost squealing with excitement.

Freshers Festival 2014!
At my University, there's an annual organised sequence of events, usually aimed at the brand new freshers to urge them to make friends. To be honest, I never really did this when I started (Despite this technically being my third year!), and I feel like I need to experience it at least once; so yep. I mean, I've always gone out with my friends during freshers week, and took full advantage of all the nice offers and discounts they're giving to 'us freshers'. It's okay, I don't need to grow up yet...

Erm... Healthy(ish) Eating?
I'd absolutely love to tell you that I've been eating healthy this Summer. But I really haven't. Well, not super strictly. I feel like when I'm at home, I'm not strict enough with what I eat - so when I get back to Uni, I'm gonna be more pro-active with the healthy eating and exercise. WHO'S WITH ME? 

Poorly Poorly Chlo!
I had a solid few days off work because I was feeling so so poorly. At first I thought I had tonsillitis - my glands were so swollen and it hurt to swallow. I'd been to the doctors for some antibiotics and they'd sent me to have some blood tests - but never fear, I'm all better now. 

Unexpected Day Off Work & Trip to Birchwood!
Yesterday I was getting ready for work, when I got a phone call off my manager saying that work was closed for the day because of weather conditions. Which as much as I need the money, I didn't mind too much. I ended up helping my Dad's girlfriend move her daughter out of her house - we were well rewarded for all our help, with a fabulous pub lunch... and then a huge slice of cake. If you're on a diet, look away.... NOW!

Like seriously. How could you NOT have any of this cake?! It took me three sittings to eat it over the course of the entire day, and I ended up throwing the rest away because it was just too much to deal with!

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