Pauline O'Donnell // 03/12/42 - 04/10/13
'When someone you love becomes a memory, that memory becomes a wonderful treasure to always hold in your heart'
Hello blog folks. I just thought this was a bit relevant to write, because in a way, this introduces a project that I've been wanting to do on behalf of my Nan. I just want to say I am not asking for sympathy, and I know that a lot of people have suffered the loss of a loved one, but out of respect for my Nan, please don't post any negative comments. (Not that I could imagine anyone of this blogging community would, of course).
If you've ever read the fundraising page on my blog, you may have read the story behind my Nan and what she's suffered through the last year and a bit. I won't go into great detail, as it's all on there so if you like, you can give that a quick read before you read this.
My Nan suffered from Oesophageal Cancer, and from the diagnosis we knew that it had already spread to other organs including her lungs and liver. (Ironically, my Nan didn't drink, and had never smoked). We were told that it was inoperable, and terminal. Knowing that there was no real cure for her illness, my Nan still took the very brave decision of undergoing Chemotherapy to prolong her life expectancy. (I've since learnt just exactly how hard it is to go through that intensity of medication, and I realise now that it takes a strong minded and willed person to have it and battle the consequences.) I knew, awfully, that my Nan's death would most likely be whilst I'm at Uni, and it did make me very anxious and sad to think that we'd all be without her, and so far away from my family.
Recently, my Nan was admitted into our local hospice called Trinity Hospice, based in my hometown. It was a generally sad and straining time to have her there, but the staff there made her feel so comfortable, and the whole facility was just so peaceful and beautiful. I'm glad that my Nan's last days were so peaceful and tranquil, and most importantly free from pain. She passed away on the 4th of October, in the early hours of the morning. I'd been home from Uni that previous weekend to see her, and my Dad called me at Uni to tell me. Obviously, I was really sad, but also a little sigh of a relief... and I felt like I could sleep again, knowing she's at peace.
This blog post is quite personal... all the purpose of this is, is for me personally to just let it all out. It doesn't matter to me if nobody reads this. The 'project' I mentioned before, is in honour and memory of my Nan. I'll be doing a lot of things to raise money for Trinity Hospice, to thank them for keeping my Nan comfortable in her last days. There'll be more about that in another blog post, or another YT video.
Thanks, if you did actually read all of this. And cherish every moment spent with your family and loved ones, because you'll never know what's round every corner. R.I.P Nan. <3